>I am in my workout room, attempting to figure out a moment to think. Just think. That’s all I want to do at this point. I attempt a yoga move and I don’t even do yoga. In fact, I just typed “Yoda” instead of “yoga”. I figure, maybe, it will pour some thoughts out of my ear and I will be left with fewer thoughts than I started with. That was an obvious fantasy that concluded in me possibly pulling an awkward muscle. I give up. In the midst of my giving up, I keep hearing Corey’s voice.
“You need to go.” he says, enunciating the go. And that is that.
It was said with such intensity across the table at Steak ‘n’ Shake. I took a sip of my water, allowed the words to sink in and then he went into further explanation. Corey kept saying that I need to figure out that God isn’t found in a podcast or a book… that God is doing things in people, and particularly those found outside the walls and seas that America is surrounded by. Just moments and conversations before, I had been talking about this exact same thing with the kids in my car; how I was ready to go on a missions trip, but I just did not know where yet. Then to hear Corey confirming that? I think God is ready to tell me something. Even in recent weeks I have been debating on where God wants me to go, what He wants me to do, how He wants me to act. Then with every question, came some kind of distraction… something that kept trying to through me off of my axis.
But that is how it happens. I find myself asking where God wants me to go, and here comes the enemy himself, attempting to unravel the things God is trying to put together. Or let’s be honest here: “Yet You know me, O Lord; You see me and test my thoughts about You.” Jeremiah 12:3. Either way, I am getting back onto my axis.
I feel on the verge of something. Something that I cannot put my finger on. I just know that it is going to be utterly life changing. All it took was Corey, my leader and my friend, to speak it out loud to me; telling me to go. Just go. Is this making any sense? I feel everywhere.
It has been such a season of transoformation for so many of us, and I don’t know if it is going to come to an end anytime soon. I think our ‘Christian clocks’ are tired of ticking; God is ready to set off our alarms. I can say, though, that I am so happy I will not be the only one waking up to the things God is preparing. I am surrounded by an amazing community that has been put into place by God, and that alone gives me such a peace. With this peace now, I will continue to keep persevering. It really is time for me to get up and go.