I had an incredibly uncomfortable encounter today. I won’t go into great detail, but I will dive into the moments that followed thereafter.
I was left in complete disarray. Quite flustered or frazzled, really, I am unsure of what adjective to assign to this moment. I knew that I quickly wanted to gather every ruffled feather and move forward in deciding how I wanted to react.
Would I remain flustered and just group all of humanity in with the reaction that I just received? No. I couldn’t do that.
Would I just float into the sea of words where most Christian’s like to throw everyone: “They’re broken. Humanity is broken. So that’s why they’re that way.” Maybe.
But I moved out of that scene. I dissected more along the way.
I finally ended at the curb of pride and all its anti-glory. I looked up and tried to understand how pride was the protagonist in the encounter. I then thought of C.S. Lewis’ quote regarding pride in his book Mere Christianity. This is what he wrote:
“The vice I am talking of is Pride or Self-Conceit: and the virtue opposite to it, in Christian morals, is called Humility…According to Christian teachers, the essential vice, the utmost evil, is Pride. Unchastity, anger, greed, drunkenness, and all that, are mere flea bites in comparison: it was through Pride that the devil became the devil: Pride leads to every other vice: it is the complete anti-God state of mind.”
So I assigned pride to the situation, but I didn’t stop there. I remembered that it is also I that wakes up each morning and has to, with great intent, pull the weed of pride from my own garden. But what happens when I don’t pull them?
This weed gets bigger. It gets worse. It becomes an infestation, an overgrowth of concern for myself and my needs only. It covers the heartbeat of how badly we need others. Of how we need God.
And it’s funny, because after that awkward encounter, I heard this person tell her kids, “Maybe God is trying to teach me patience.” As I exited, all I heard was, “Yes, mommy. Don’t be mad anymore.”
Kids must wake up without weeds.